Dealing With Stress

I'm dealing with stress these days.  Exponential stress.  Stress that seems to never end.  Stress that has racked my world and turned it upside down.  Stress that is chewing up my insides and spitting them out.  Stress... it's everywhere in my world.

To say I'm dealing with it, well, not sure if that's accurate or not.  I'm functioning, but my life has very little responsibility these days so functioning has been simplified as I only need to care for me.

My problem is that I've lost my appetite completely.  I'm not hungry for anything and am making myself eat.  Thank goodness for the protein shakes.

And my scale is confirming my lack of appetite.  This morning I stepped on and I'm down to 173 lbs.  That's 2 1/2 pounds lost in only THREE DAYS!  BAD, BAD, BAD.

I need to eat.  I need to get my life back in order.  I need to relax and embrace my circumstances.  But mostly, I need to eat.

Certainly 2 1/2 pounds lost in three days is not lost FAT.  There might be a hint of FAT loss in that, but I would gather more than just FAT is being lost right now.

So my goal now is to simply to stabilize.  I need to get on some sort of schedule again with regular meals and healthy eating habits.  I can't let stress take over my life just like I can't let food take over either.

I'm going to be okay.... this is my new mantra.  Now if I can just start believing it.

-- Kristin